WEll, so much for all the happy happy joy joy crap! I sent that off, posted in my little bloggy places where it belonged & here, went to the grocery & health food store to get stuff for my granola & cappacino, which I’m making enough to share for my Christmas presents for several people & family, then promptly, swiftly and apparently with grace and ease from Marcus’s viewpoint, slipped on the ice and nearly broke my hip.

And oh, yeah, it’s the hip with the tumor. No I didn’t go get it x-rayed, yes I probably should but morphine is kicking the crap out of it. If I wake up tomorrow afternoon, and can’t move it, maybe then I’ll call the ER, but I’ll only do so if it really looks like it feels (which is pretty bad, let me tell you!) DANG IT! DANG IT! DANG IT! DANG IT! DANG IT!

Good thing there is not a single plan for tomorrow! Nada, nothing, zip, zero! Obviously I may not know what I’m doing, but God does. He planned a day of nothing and content, just in case I fell on my arse and was unable to do anything. Ain’t He such a nice guy?!!? Don’t ask if that’s humor or sarcasm, might get me in trouble, you know?

Eric & family are in Houston for the weekend. Karen is working tonight, so will sleep part of tomorrow then more tomorrow night, and be fresh for Christmas dinner with Marcus & I on Friday. So, tomorrow, if I want to I can stay in bed all day, I can, and after tonight’s unsuccessful flying lesson, I just might decide to.

WEll, out of all this, the on gleaming ray of hope and sunshine—–it doesn’t hurt (at this point) to sit in my computer chair, hopefully tomorrow, it will be no worse, and we will still be a go for me to get more proof pkgs out. Got extra prayers tonight and first thing in the morning, ease of hip pain is sure where I’m needing them directed. The rest of my back could use a little help too, since it kinda wrenched me around.

Gracious, why now? Not why me, quit asking that question of God about 7 years ago. But, his timing seems to be off a bit so many times. I don’t understand it, just why now, I got stuff to do, Lord, wait just a few more days, then roll me up in a ball and smash me for all I care, I’ll have plenty of time to heal!!! Are ya listening? Yeah, I know, you’ll pick me up at the next corner and we’ll take a drive for a bit while you take care of things. He’s like that, you know?

I used to think it was the greatest thing in the world to have God for my co-pilot! I mean what more could you ask for than the creator of life and all that is in it, to be giving you directions, and reading the map and letting you know when you were on or off course. Until one day, someone pointed out that it really would work better if I tradded places and let God be the PILOT not the CO-PILOT. Boy, what a dope! That works a whole lot better now, and I don’t have to start the day out by asking God what the plan is, He already knows!!!

I love all you people, and I am so glad that when I woke up a little bit ago, I knew exactly what would make me feel better. Get this off my chest, back and mostly my heart & hip

God’s Blessings to each of you, and Hugs and Love from me and mine to you and yours.

It’s officially Christmas morning!!! May you all have the best Christmas you would like to have. I’m sure I will Thanks for listening, I’m going back to lay down.

Sherry

Hi, Everybody!

Well, all, it’s been that long again!!!! So long that I’ll have to write you a book to catch you up on everything that’s happened in the last month! I’ll try to skim over a few, so that it’s really not QUITE soooo long, but I make no promises

Since we talked last, I got a new medicine, Quadramet, actually a radioactive medicine given by IV. It is being studied for milder cases of bone mets (tumors on the bone from other types of cancer other than bone cancer) like mine. It’s been proven very successful in the severe cases. Now, they are studying to see what dosages work best for the lesser cases. My tumors on the bones, really are small compared to many, and while they do really hurt, the morphine has been controlling the pain. But who wants to live on morphine!?!? You walk funny, talk funny, think funny, and I mean more than NORMAL for ME!!! This medicine not only helps with the pain, it eats the cancer cells while it’s at it. What more could you ask for than a double hitter!?!?! I got my dosage about 5 wks ago. The told me that this medicine promises to have a reaction, which would be either 2-3 days or 2-3 wks out from taking it, and could be as mild as flu like symptoms, to severe enough to need hospitalized to control the pain. Oooooh, kinda scary! But it also came with the promise that it WILL cut down on the pain, so, I figured it’s worth the risk, I’m all about getting some of this pain.

My pain bout came about 2 wks out, and was very similar to the bout of pain I get from my first couple Zometa treatments, like a really bad case of the flu. Fever, pain, aches, the whole nine yards, but I survived it. That was followed directly by a nice case of acute bronchitis! Man! Can’t win for losing sometimes around me

I had already cut way back on my pain meds for my fibro and arthritis, but was up to 45Mg of Morphine 3 times a day. Not good. But, necessary. It’s sure been nice to be free of pain, most of the time. Every now and then I overdo it a little, or wait a little too long, and have to take a booster, but not to many times a week.

AND since the reaction bout from the Quadramet, I’ve worked down to 30Mg of Morphine 3 times a day, and skipping doses here and there, usually my midday one. The morning is pretty consistently needed because sleeping just isn’t nice for me, mostly because of where the mets are at. And the nighttime dose is usually just at the end of the limit for the morning dose. These doses are actually supposed to last 12 hours, but they hadn’t been, and now the Quadramet has taken away enough of the pain, that I’m soon going to be totally at 2 doses a day, 30Mg. And who knows how soon I’ll be cutting one of them back to 20 or 15 even Just keep praying for me and we will see God working some miracles here very soon.

BTW, anyone that’s a bit curious to know more about my type of cancer can find lots of info at http://www.mbcnetwork.org

Marcus & I are both doing pretty well, all things considered. We are staying SO MUCH WARMER this year. Please offer a prayer of thanks again for all the help we got on our house this fall. It has made this winter already so much more bearable, and it is just amazing. I know it has helped Marcus feel a lot better to be warmer as well, fibro really doesn’t like it when you get too cold, and we used to always be chilly no matter how much we bundled up, we just stayed that way. Now, I’m actually sitting here soaking my feet (got an infected toenail) and I’m not freezing. Couldn’t imagine doing this last year!!! I’d have had to sit in the bathroom with the door closed and a space heater on.

I’ve been adding goodies and interesting (hopefully) things to my website. I try to add something every day or at least work on something to get added. Many things take several days, because I just can’t work that long, but it’s getting better.

I’m still working on my cookbook too (the PBS one, for those from PBS). I’ve got some women working on the final copy and we are going to hopefully be done the end of the first full week of January. I’m hoping that works anyway.

Another project I’ve started, is taking pictures of my “hairdo’s” every day. Since my hats & scarves are really my hair, that’s what I call them. And I’m going to be putting them on the website very shortly. It will be called My Fashion Show hahaha Several people have sent me scarves & hats and this way they get to see what they have contributed to my self esteem by helping me always have a fashionable head dressing whenever I go anywhere It’s my way of thanking them all.

Well, I’ve bent your eyes long enough, and my fingers and arms for one day. I love all the support I have gotten from so many people, and all the prayers that I can feel being sent up on my behalf. I hope that in some way at some time in the future, God grants me the means to pay-forward all the blessings and prayers and care that I have been given in the last 8-9 months. You’ve all been such joys whenever I need you, and I’ve always found someone to show up in email or letters or PMs “just when I need them” God so very much does take excellent care of me, and I hope you are all letting Him take such excellent care of you by being obedient and faithful to His plans and the growth of His Kingdom

God’s Blessings to you all and My Hugs and Love to each and every one of you,

Till next time,
Sherry
sherry at nislycreations dot com
http://specialpagesbysherry.nislycreations.com OR
http://tinyurl.com/sstuff (Takes you to the same page, just shorter and easier to remember